Circles🔺

I've been a little active on clubhouse lately. I've heard a lot more people speak, the way they process things, their beliefs and the reaction they have to new ideas. I've also been in a lot of rooms, where basic etiquette is missing, it's a room filled with ego where one's objective is to be heard. I've been in rooms where everyone is respectful, think about ideas and are genuinely curious for what others have to say. 

I'm being the observer here. But to people doing all these things, no matter if they are loud or they are calm. That was the right reaction at the moment. That has led to me think that whatever I am thinking, I feel is right to think at the moment, but my "observer" self, is just noticing that and saying it's not that serious or like maybe you're wrong like the others who feel that they are right but you can see through it.  That again led me to feel like there's nothing wrong or right. We can sit here and judge ideas all day, but it's all based on our frame of reference. 

Everyone has a frame of reference that they tie their ideas to. Everyone has an identity and something that they identify with. These thoughts are direct results of that. I've noticed that I tend to attach things with the belief that "ego is bad". I'm glad to have maintained this blog because I've started noticing patterns now. Now, for someone who feels like ego is not that bad, our ideas will clash. And I might feel hurt or you know feel like the other person doesn't know shit. But that's not the case, I think. There can be multiple "truths" or "realities". 

The idea is to understand them, I think. Again, this becomes a self-referential thing because now my frame of reference is "understanding". So, again I thought about accepting things as they are, and that reference became "acceptance". So, this is what's confusing me now. But again, is it necessary to find answers to these questions. I don't think so. At the moment, now I am just trying to understand these. 

Circles is also an interesting concept. I think that's where I am right now. In circles with different ideas. Traingle is also cool when you think about it. You go up and down and at the same level. Everything becomes deep and meaningful once you attach some kind of meaning to it. 

I wish I took more time to think about things and write so I can have a clear picture of what I am thinking or deduce something from the way I think. It's fun to compare your thoughts to others, and examine what led you to believe that particular thing. Unlike core science, social science is crazy, too many variables and it's very difficult to model anything. But, these days I am very in social science. I remember hating social studies in school, but now it's actually pretty cool. 

Also another thing, I realized that silence can sometimes answer questions. Sometimes it just means that "you know the answer yourself, I am just gonna be quiet and let you listen to yourself." I found that it was more powerful than speaking it out. Maybe that depends on the person that's asking the question, but it was a beautiful realization. I also think sometimes we romanticize these kind of contradictory statements, but for now, just let me have it ok (?) lol. 

Anyways that is it guys, if you read all the way through, let me know if you have any comments down below. Would love to hear from you guys! 

until next time

- handsome charming man.