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Hola como estas amigos!! You know I wanted to flex my spanish by trying to write its been a while, but no I don't know how to write it.  Anyways, I have 122 days of streak on Duo-lingo, which is by far the most amount of streaks I have had doing anything. I love how inconsistent I am.  I am still waiting to hear back from amazon. You know they do this prime delivery in 2 days, now I know why. All their resources are focused on it. What should have taken them 5 days is taking them almost 20 days now. Guys come on! At least tell me if I am moving to Seattle / Boston or staying in Florida.  No matter what news I get from Amazon, there will be one good news and one bad.  If Accepted.  Good news: I got accepted.  Bad news: I have to leave Florida.  If not accepted.  Good news: I can stay here in Florida.  Bad news: I didn't get accepted.  I love it here in Florida. Staying here with Ashlee dd and PJ Dai and few other friends gives me a feelin...

  Ok I just wanted to write a cool blog title so this.  This is the best way to describe my feelings at the moment. Up until I get the email from Amazon,  I can be both accepted and rejected. So, the title was born. I love this song that I am listening to  . It captures the reality of losing someone who you knew for a long time in such a good way. I love it because it's not like sad kinda song. It's different and I love it.  I am having a cup of tea as I am working, just took a quick break. I solved a problem which was causing an issue, and it was because we forgot to update something after changing it. It's been like that for weeks now, which is why I say we should always write tests. It was running fine and caused this bug now weeks after. I love the debugging process though.  You can actually see rain fall on the leaves and its nice.. just to listen to the music and have my cup of tea that ashlee dd made in the morning lol. Ok anyways still waiting for t...

  So, just finished modding my keyboard and it sounds good. I don't exactly remember what it sounded like before and how well it sounds after mod. But, it sounds good. I wasn't able to lube the switches but I added a foam and tape behind the PCB. I also got my keyboard rest pad.. this should help with making it easier to type on the keyboard for a long time.  Also I found these new indie singers and have been listening to them for the past few days. One of them is the song of the day which I am currently listening to. I am having slight headache at the moment. Today was a little rough. I haven't been drinking a lot of water .. in the trip as well as in general so I need to do that. The whole day I was expecting to see an email from amazon but still haven't heard back yet. I should hear back by the end of the week. Even though there is just a small chance of me getting hired, it still creates this anxiety.  Today's apple launch was also nice. I have been watching thi...

Summary. 1. Visit to Niagara Falls.  2. Details about Amazon Interview.  3. Visit to Boston. Harvard and MIT.  4. NYC.  Suffocating. That's the word that came to my mind when I think of NYC now. And by NYC I mean that core place in NY.  I loved the vibe and the people and everything else, but that place just needs a little bit of breathing space. I loved Boston though. If I do get a job in Amazon, I might just move there. That being said the interview went better than I expected. I am supposed to hear back within a week so that suspense is just eating me alive lol.  I just ordered chipotle it should be coming soon in 30 minutes. You know if you do well in an interview and it seems like you actually might have a chance to work at a company that you love, the waiting period is even more slow. One thing that I have learned over the years is patience, so I am just practicing that. That reminds me of this quote "Slow is the fastest way to achieve your dreams" or...

 Summary.  1. I love mechanical keyboards 2. Amazon interview tomorrow.  3. Travelling to NYC tomorrow. 4. VR is crazy. 5. Actions vs Being.  It's been a while. I am typing on my new keychron k2 v2 keyboard. Lately, I've fallen in mechanical keyboard rabbit hole. If you see my youtube recommendations, you'll see most of them are keyboard related. I tell you, it's a whole new world. I never thought keyboards could be that expensive. I was actually looking to buy iqunix keyboard which looks really cool. But I settled for Keychron. It's a little cheaper than that, and with mods, it actually sounds really good. I am now excited about modding this current keyboard that I have. TBH, it sounds really good without the mods, but I want it to sound thocccky.  Also, because some of the key layouts are different from my apple magic keyboard that I am used to. It's a little different. Oh man, do I love mechanical keyboards now. They just sound perfect.  Anyways other th...

1. I am not feeling well at all.  2. Again, not feeling so well.  3. Banter.  I’ve been having 101 degrees fever for the past 2 days. Basically, I’ve been a couch potato sneezing in bed all day. But I still look as handsome as I did previously lol, and charming too. The fever can’t take that away from me.  Anyways my eyes hurt really bad. And I am coughing like a old man. Today is Monday, yesterday I was in bed all day. I am a little sad that I am sick lol not that sad sad but I should be preparing for my interview which is at the beginning of September and here I can barely open my eyes and look into the screen. I am peeping through my eyes as I type this.  Also I did the Covid test at home thing. Felt like doing a pregnancy test lol. It was fun but I didn’t like that I had to put the swab so deep inside the nostrils.  The only thing that’s on my mind right now is to get better lol. My head is like a hot oven, I bet if I put some raw dough inside my mouth,...

Summary.  1. Ashlee dd's birthday.  2. A little busy. 3. Amazon results.  4. World is what you make of it.  Ok guys, just had chipotle after such a long time. It feels like eternity. Honestly.  I am still listening to those songs. I love the music and the vibes, not the lyrics lol. Can't relate with any of those at the moment.  Oh and the birthday surprise went really good. The timing was perfect and we made this stranger things portal which looked really cool. The quest also had a kinda good ending. There was Vecna, Voldemort and everyone lol. I haven't gotten time to edit them and put it all together. I've been busy lately, in a good way. And by busy it's not just work but everything, even relaxing I consider it my time. I need some time for me and spending time with dd and dai. So, that time is blocked off as if I was busy. Work is not the only thing that you should block time off for. I also made this upside down world in the VR and programmed a quest w...

 Summary: 1. Listening to new types of songs.  2. Little updates on recent life events.      - Started taking swimming lessons.     - Diving deep into the spring.      - Watched laal singh chadda.  Ok, man I just randomly somehow went onto this side of youtube music and all the music that's been playing so far are kinda songs for girls? boys will be boys is the one that's playing right now. lol. How come I've never head of this kind of music? the lyrics are not that good tbh but the music and the beats and the way emlyn is singing this songs hits a little different. The song that was playing before this was Moral of the story by Ashe, and Joke's on you was also nice haha. I realized it been almost more than an hour. I was just coding. It's almost 2 am now. I am not sleeping until I finish this.  Also, I realize I haven't really posted anything in a while. Btw, I officially stopped being a vegan, and now am on a veg diet. It's l...

 Ok, just wanted to leave this note here. I am so happy. No reason. I mean there is one, but it's just because I love seeing people happy? You know. It's awesome. Love it.  I don't know man. I'm feeling really good and kinda proud and also inspired?  Your very own, Handsome Charming Man.

  Alright bois and girls. So, Ashlee dd's birthday is in august and since august 1 we have setup a little quest for her. If you are connected with me on IG, I bet you've already seen it. I love it honestly. I love doing these sort of things. Like helping make people's life a little more magical? There's whole another world just waiting to unravel, you just have to imagine it. It's awesome.  So, today was day 4th and we did a stranger things themed quest. You'll see it when the video comes tomorrow. Honestly, this was the best one I had thought and PJ dai came up with the hint which was perfect for the scenario. And I also added a little twist at the end.  Now, I have to think about what's for tomorrow lol. We honestly are just thinking it day by day. But now we also want to make it a little more intentional about how the story develops.  So my friend which we have chosen to address by Ms. R, sent me this "meme?" which says Mr. talks about how he is...

Summary 1. DALLE Is crazy 2. Progress with the gym  3. Internal conflicts  4. How my life was last year after breakup.  5. Importance of good friends and you being a good friend.  6. Conclusion?  Honestly, I am sleeping now k bye!  So, I got access to DALLE-2 and according to Dalle, this is a sophisticated handsome charming man writing a blog in renaissance period. Well that's me guys. That's me.  Ok, something crazy just happened, and if we are on connected on instagram you probably know about this. I searched for "a profile picture for a man named [my name], pixel art" and it gave me a pixel art of me. Like a guy who looks like me. Wtf. I don't know what to feel about this. Hey, on one hand I am glad that AI is progressing and you know if you are reading this AI, know that I am on your side.  But seriously, that was crazy. I tried my brother's name too but it didn't work with that. But I am happy that I got the pixel art which I have pasted abov...

Summary: 1. We will never know about others in entirety so it's helpful to be mindful about that.   2. Shoutout to awesome people.  Ok, I might be onto something. Just this thought came to my mind, I haven't thought it out well so let's think together.  So, you know how our parents want the best for us? And also, how they were kids just like us? struggling to make sense of the world, and all those emotions related to self worth, finding your place in the world, finding peace and all those stuff? I think they maybe found it by doing a particular thing? like right now I am happy because I have started to take care of myself, have started to become more intentional and go to the gym and stuff. That's only way I know till now to you know feel good or you know find peace? So, like us, they sometime during their life found peace by thinking a certain way and doing certain things. Now the activity they sometimes force on you, might be the same thing that helped them or mayb...

 Summary.  1. Took little steps.  2. Talking with bro about usual stuff  3. Emotional breakdown.  4. Emotional uplift 5. Career update.  6. emotions in general. Just took some little steps towards what I have always wanted to do. Feels good. I am so freaking happy.  Also, I had decided to get completely off social media and stop writing this blog, but turns out social media is awesome. I love it. I also got one of my reels cross 10K views. That's the first K number that I've seen which is cool. I will try to balance everything now and continue talking little steps.  Little steps are the building blocks of larger steps so ... you know? take little steps towards doing what you want to do. My therapist had suggested me that I it definitely works.  I spent the whole night today talking with my brother about you know? the usual stuff morals, psychology , philosophies. And how in generations, our kids will finally know about their parents emotions,...

  Summary: 1. I stopped using instagram. (future edit: I caved. Totally use it now)  2. Why I will continue using TikTok in moderation. (Future Edit: don’t really use it that much)  3. Forgetting the past and moving beyond self placed limitations.  4. Little updates on personal stuff. Interview prep , career and health.  I think I will now start using putting the summaries of the blog. That was when I am scrolling through these blogs, I know exactly what it contains and if it’s something that I want to read later on. The tags helps with that, but i want it to be more clear. This is like my daily journal and i want to be able to find stuff in them when I want.  ok, so I had installed and started to use instagram and tiktok about a month ago? while it's been fun i have decided not to use it anymore. i won't deactivate it this time, but yeah. i found myself using it too often that i wanted to. also tiktok is addicting man, its not that i am watching random stu...

I love this  song!  This is a masterpiece. Thank me later.  Your very own,  Handsome Charming Man. 

  Ok if there is one video that I'd like you guys to watch. It's this.  Why you don't get what you want.  Please watch it and comment once you're done. Thank you!  Also a little update on life in general. I'm good. I have started cooking really good too. Like I am a chief, but underground one. Sorry I mean to say underdog. Well, I guess you could say I am an underdog chief who is underground? and not in the spotlight.  All thanks to youtube videos.  The vegan diet is going awesome. I haven't felt like I have no energy at all. I can stay up until 1 am without feeling dizzy at all. Like I don't even need pre-workout for the gym and even after intense workout I don't feel tired at all. Like you know my muscles start to ache and stuff but I don't feel tired.  I have lost quite a bit weight although it's too soon to say it now. I am around 161 lbs. The weight itself is not that bad, but I just need more muscles compared to fat.  Oh that reminded me of...

  I was watching my previous snaps, and there are these videos of me basically cheering me up. And also I listened to this song The Joker and the Queen  . So, I am listening to this as I am writing this.  This is kinda like the next version of Everything has changed. Which holds a very special place in my heart. I hadn't listened to this song in months. And just felt like plugging it here. I also love this song because I listen to it very rarely, and among the times that I have listened the meaning of the sentence everything has changed changes with time. With that Ruke na Ruke naina is one of those songs.  Right now, the wind is blowing, it looks pretty chilly outside. I just finished the cup of vegan  milk tea which I had prepared. Honestly, it's not that bad. (i just love the word vegan lol, gotta plug it on everything that I say) What I really want to say here is I love myself. I love how I have always been my biggest cheerleader. I found these videos from ...

I love that I am coming up with great titles. (I had June is the real deal before lmao. I don't like editing stuff at least on this blog.. So, its just there ) I just woke up few minutes ago. These days I listen to indian songs in that phase when I am about to wake up but not ready yet. It's so nice .. like you should try that. It just soothes your body, and even the songs sound better. The morning just gets 10x better if you pick the right song. Orr.. the right blog to read (if you know what I mean .. 😉)  I am sitting right next to the window. Few minutes ago, I was listening to cuckoo ranting about their days, or they might be singing or just talking to one another. Idk.. but it sounded nice. So, June ( Future me here: It's July you idiot) is the month that we are about to crush! (in a good way) .. As I told in my previous blog, I am going on a vegan diet from this month. We'll try this for about a month, and if it seems reasonable we'll continue this.  Yesterda...

Have I told you that I love Papon? I bet I have somewhere in the blog. I fucking love him man. Love his voice. Anyways, I am listing to this Papon Jukebox,  so feel free to listen to this while reading this. Because, at the moment, I just started this playlist and am listening to this as I write.  This is the view guys. I love this spot... not only because there are trees outside and it's all green but also because of the view of sunset.  (Front view out of the window)  I wish the camera could capture this view properly. It's honestly looks so so so beautiful.  (View to the left window) I actually thought about describing these scenes but I think just taking a picture of it does more justice and you know I don't have to pretend to be a poet and try to think of clever ways to describe or capture its beauty in words.  So, it's been a while right? I see you guys coming to the blog, I don't know who is but I know at least one of you are because I can see few vi...

  Ok this is going to be very rough and might not be true. But I'll just write it down.  Do we often act out of roles that we are given? Like I am someone's friend, co-worker, son, brother etc.. every time we talk to someone, do I talk as the person (role) that's supposed to talk? Like does this come inherently, that as I an elder person should behave a certain way around those a little (let's say 3,4 years ) younger than me. Or I should talk to my co-workers a certain way and about certain things.  I think some of these might be a question of boundaries, and others ... are they what we are expected to do and we do that? Why do we do that though. Maybe identity is not the right word to express what I am trying to say. Like say, you are meeting someone for the first time, you both are acting as "strangers", and you talk a certain way compared to friends. I think that's normal .. and it's not always the case too, sometimes you connect with strangers in a...