Hey Humnava

Have I told you that I love Papon? I bet I have somewhere in the blog. I fucking love him man. Love his voice. Anyways, I am listing to this Papon Jukebox, so feel free to listen to this while reading this. Because, at the moment, I just started this playlist and am listening to this as I write. 

This is the view guys. I love this spot... not only because there are trees outside and it's all green but also because of the view of sunset. 

(Front view out of the window) 

I wish the camera could capture this view properly. It's honestly looks so so so beautiful. 

(View to the left window)

I actually thought about describing these scenes but I think just taking a picture of it does more justice and you know I don't have to pretend to be a poet and try to think of clever ways to describe or capture its beauty in words. 

So, it's been a while right? I see you guys coming to the blog, I don't know who is but I know at least one of you are because I can see few views daily on the blog. And now after talking to my brother this morning, I found out he was one of them. So,  this one's for you hermano. (means brother in Spanish). Gotta flex that 40+ days streak on Duolingo. 

Ok the songs just switched. Gaye tum gaye ho kyun. 

This song is pretty close to one of my friend / dai lol and this reminds me of him. He told me his love story? and how this song reminds him of his ex and can't even listen to this properly without all the emotions attached with it. I hope one day you will able to enjoy Papon's voice and the music without all that amigo 🍻. I love this song. 

So.. status update. Nothing much has been going on. Looks like my legs are not properly recovering. Especially I went to the gym few days after the hike and then again, so I have having a little pain in my knees, so I haven't gone to the gym in few days. But we just walk around the neighborhood so we at least move for a certain while. Other than that, health is perfecto. Both physical and mental. 

Few days ago I made the tastiest chicken and spinach. Kinda proud of that. Also, I'm now almost a french chief who specializes in making french toast. Ohhhhhhhh... guys!!!! I almost forgot. This is a huge announcement. So, I am going vegan. Like completely, from next month. The reason being the documentary that I watched a few days ago. Turns out protein from animal sources is bad. 

I think we'll try this for a month and see how we feel, and then decide if we want to continue doing this. Honestly, not eating meat might not be that for me, but like not having milk and cheese, butter etcc.. is kinda difficult. But, we'll see. I think it'd be awesome. But don't worry, I am not going to go around and make veganism my whole identity.  Or... i might who knows 😌

New song .. started. (Mohobat Karne wale) 

Also, that's my favorite emojis these days lol. 

Career: So, other than that the preparation is going well for the job interview. I have applied to amazon and should be receiving Online Assessment pretty soon. Man, I feel so unprepared. But it is what it is, I should just go through these.. it'll be like a first shot and it'll get me prepared for the next time, which might be after 6 months. I think I will be able to crack these then. But, even 3 months shouldn't be less time. I just need to keep up this pace. I am looking into Dynamic programming problems right now, and honestly they are not so difficult as I thought they were. Well, it's challenging but you know I think after solid practice I should be able to solve it properly. 

And for my regular job, its sometimes difficult and confusing but it's going good. I will try to refactor some of the code tomorrow. 

Oh also I kinda had started smoking? but then I quit. It's not like I smoked few cigarettes a day but if had been a while like almost 2 years? that I hadn't smoked any. But after our trip from Keywest we had a cigarette packet and had 5,6 left so I had started just smoking few but.... here's the thing guys, I threw all of them yesterday. I was having the urge to smoke last night? not really urge, it's just like it was there and I felt .. hmmm .. should i? but then I threw all of it away. And I felt good. Like why the fuck was I trying to smoke. That question came to my mind, and I had already lit the cigarette but then I trashed it. 

You know that reminds me of my grandfather. I didn't know this but he used to smoke weed, (its funny when you hear these things) but then he stopped at a certain age. Toady morning I saw a dream when I was back home in mamaghar and we were at one of the big gatherings, we were all kids, everything was chaotic in a good way. I thought our kids might never be able to experience that. Will we be able to create that environment of togetherness? Like a big family, big gatherings, kids playing around, adults cooking, and doing other stuff and everyone having a good time? Especially in the US I doubt it, but this is also why I am calling everyone here lol. We need to take over US lol . 

Damn, it's been a while that I have been just thinking and writing.. Aaj jane ki jit na karo (30:11) timestamp is playing in the background right now. I think this is pretty short for a journal. 

Also, June 28 is one of my friend/ sister's birthday and I made this really nice gift card for her by myself and I feel good about it. She had wanted these shoes from new balance and I couldn't get her size of the kind of shoes she wanted so I made this gift card design and put the instructions to claim it. And it's cute. 

So, that is it folks. I will now continue studying after a while. Life's good man. Super grateful and thankful for everyone in my life again. I might not say it directly, but I hope I can show them in actions to the people I come in contact with and to you guys reading, I just said it lol. 

Also I will leave you with this piece of advice form this Bertrand Russell, a British philosopher,  which really resonated with me. 

Question: "What would you think is worth telling to future generations about life you’ve lived?"

Answer:  I would like to say two things. 

1. Intellectual thing

When you are studying any matter or considering any philosophies. Ask yourself only what are the facts and what are the truth that the facts bear out. Never let yourself be diverted either by what you wish to believe or by what you think could have beneficial social effects if its were to be lived. But look only and solely at “What are the facts”.

2. Moral

Love is wise, hatred is foolish. In this world, which is getting more and more closely interconnected, we have to learn to tolerate each other, we have to learn put up with the fact that some people say things that we don’t like. We can only live together in that way. And if we are to live together and not die together, we must learn a kind of charity and a kind of tolerance, which is absolutely vital to the continuation of human life on this planet.


I think we've become more and more like "Oh I hangout with people whose thought match really well with mine and who agree with me all the time." and "Oh fuck I can't stand that person, I'm going to cut them off" and something like this right? Even for the smallest of reason. But living together, having a certain tolerance for things and learning to compromise are also skills. Eye for an eye keeps the whole world blind is such a well thought out statement. And I love that he uses the word "learn" because .. yeah these are something we must learn. 

I'll just leave you guys to ponder on that. 

- Your very own, 
-Handsome Charming Man.