Love the weather.

Ok. First of all. I love the weather today. Also, I love big monitors. 

Let me describe the weather to you first. I think let me describe myself and how I feel because I think that's important to understand the weather first. Lol look at me trying to preach inner peace and look at me again noticing that and writing it here. 

Anyways, Mr Jadoo (who is a cute little pug) is sitting besides me looking directly to my eyes. I wonder what he is thinking right now. He just saw me type and the sound that came from the keyboard so he switched his glance to the keyboard. Now, he is back at looking at me again. Lol. I wish I could understand this little guy. But, he definately has been a source of comfort these days. I wonder if I have been able to make him feel the same way. I wish I could. I play with him time to time. Ok, now he wants something from me. He usually sits right infront of me when he wants something. 

Ok, looks like he wanted to go out. So, we both walked around the neighborhood a little bit. I noticed how different lives are when you live in an apartment vs a house. Also, if you are around married couples or families vs just single bachelors filled with excessive hormones. I haven't been old yet but I love the idea of being around a families. I think I had missed that aspect of life. I have been living by myself and just with a bunch of boys for past 4 years. I had missed the smile of small kids, and the innocence. I had missed the wisdom of adults, and the way they think. I certainly miss old people like the ones who are my grandparents, there's an different aura, when all these people come together. I realized I had missed my family and the society of Nepal. 

I am in florida right now, staying at my brother's and sister's place. Like they both are friends but they are elder than me and also now I feel like they are actually my brother and sister. And it feels amazing here. I feel at home. Although we are friends, but still there is inexplicable charm about this place. I have learned the importance of taking things slowly from my sister and just being chill and responsible from my brother. They both compliment each other so perfectly. I love the dynamic between the two. 

Right now, I can see outside. I am right at the corner of a room which is at the corner of the house lol. There are these big windows right where I am at and a big monitor screen which belongs to them. I feel calm, the weather is hot so I am wrapped up in the shwal that I order from etsy and a big blanket in my legs. It's amazing, the time has slowed down a bit. I am not worried about anything, it's just I am writing. I wish I could translate this feeling into words. I think I have accepted everything and have allowed myself to just be. 

I have a few things that I need to do. I have a project that I need to finish for school and some work of my own for the job. I also need to study and do few homeworks. I think I will start that now. But thanks for coming here. Reading this. I think I will start writing even more. I love writing. I guess I will try to make it less dramatic lol, but sometimes you gotta do what you feel like. 

I hope you have a fantastic day, wherever you are or whatever is going through. You can make through this. Also, you deserve everything in life. I had always underestimated the value of saying these things, but you never know what someone is going through and I have found how much it helped me when I was in a really bad spot. I had found this tiktok which said something like "don't worry if there's no one to wish you goodnight, and then proceeded to wish me good night and told me to have a good sleep". I kid you not I cried. So, it's just idk where I remembered that from. It was such a long time ago. But yeah, guys, let's end this blog right here. Hope all of you have an amazing day again. 

Until Next Time

- The Handsomest and Charmingest Manest Man. 

(Gotta keep hyping oneself up. Now, it's leveled up)