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 https://www.reddit.com/r/nextfuckinglevel/comments/qx5iv7/every_father_is_superhero/

Man, these types of video just inspire me to do the best I can. Like you know, taking care of myself, being in touch with myself, and just becoming a better human being. If I ever decide to get married or just adopt kids, I want to be there for them and you know give them the best childhood and do my best to make them love themselves, and show that world is a nice place. Maybe inspire them to do something good and be selfless. 

I wonder if my father used to think about all these stuff. I bet he did, but you don't really talk about your feelings in our community. Man, I love my dad, even though we don't have the best relationship a father and son could have, I am very grateful for what he has done for us. When I used to be a stupid kid (I still am btw.. not kid but stupid) I remember telling my dad that he hasn't accomplished much in life. Haha man I feel so bad and I laugh at myself at the same time, because at those times I used to watch all these youtube videos about hustling and building an empire with shit ton of money and stuff. I bet he has done more than I could do if I was in his shoes. Man, it takes a lot to just come from village and take care of your family, support a group of 5 people. 

I sometimes feel like dads are not appreciated much. But yeah, fuck he has worked way too much, obviously there were certain things that I didn't like about him and he could've done a much better job at handling his anger but, I think I never understood the stress he used to have when we were growing up. I definitely need to learn to have his work ethic. Idk.. I just hope I can do my best. 

Being in a completely new country and having to build your life from scratch is difficult. But, I think I feel much more safe compared to my dad because I at least have a safety net. I know if I can't make it or something happens, my parents are there for me. I don't think my dad had that. Also, I am not going to marry until I know I can properly take care of my wife and kids. Yeah, wife earn too, but I think I would like to be sure I can take care of everything if she decides to be a house wife and spend time with their kids in their early years. In fact I think that's the best. Obviously, if they want they can work but if that's the case, I want to make sure I can spend my time with my kids when they grow up. At least one of us will be there for the kids like a full time parent. 

I don't know why I am writing these lol. It's just all these things came to me after after the video above. Man, there's something about family and relationships which I love. I used to think fuck relationships or you know not fuck but meh types. But the more I grow old, I realize that it's important to have good relationships with your family members as well as distant relatives. No matter how the other person is. I think that's one of our eastern values and I intend on following them. Fuck western media and the individualism they preach. You should never prioritize yourself, always think of common good and for others. At least that is what I think I will try to do more often. All these things are certainly not black and white but you now.. I think I should say I lean more towards community now. 

Anyways, that was it. If I ever become a dad, future kid reading this... umm sorry if I wasn't the best and you're welcome if I was lol. I am 24 now, and you guys are not even born yet but I love you already. Can't wait to watch deadpool with all you guys!