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Time Heals 😌


I had my therapy session after a while now. My therapist randomly asked me how motu was doing. She did that on purpose, to see how I would react. And based on how did responded, she told I was getting better. It's getting easier. I do feel hurt but now I don't feel bad a lot. But I know I cannot see her again, or look at her picture or anything of that sort. I don't think I would be able to deal with that. Anyways, I told my therapist about that. 

Then we talked about self-esteem issues, and I don't think I have any now at the moment. Also, few months earlier when we first started therapy I had given myself a rating of 4 out of 10 and now today it's almost jumped to 8.5. Which was cool. Like why the fuck did I even think myself that I would be 4. Like this is not in attractiveness just to be clear. It's about the whole self, and how I perceive myself. So, that was surprising because I didn't know that I had given myself 4.

Anyways, enough with the numbers game, everything mentally seems to be going well. I was told that my greatest strength and weakness sometimes is thinking. Apparently I am a thinker? 

Anyways, I am listening to this lofi song list and lagja gale is playing while I write this. [I had written a long description of what this song meant to me but I deleted it sorry lol] 

Umm. other than the mental health update related to breakup, I spent the day studying. Mostly watching these videos on how to prepare for interviews and researching about Microsoft, and what they value. Whenever I was reading the job description I was like yes that's fucking me. Yeah so I did that made some notes. Read few interview experiences. I am a little worried about technical part but I think I will do well on behavioral. Btw did you know that I have never been rejected after an interview from anything yet? All the interviews I've got, I've got the job or the role or the scholarship. So, that's boosting my confidence. It would be so cool if I could make it through this too. Then I would flex so hard. Like I've always made it through the interviews.. The result for this interview would be around next Thursday so I am as excited to know than you. The title for next Thursday will either be "Fuck yes!!!!" or "Ok...." or a completely different one. 

It's 10:05 now, I will now again look into sorting algorithms and Binary tree traversals. 

tomorrow I will do a mock interview and start looking into leetcode patterns. Also do a little bit of work. 

Again, do keep me in your prayers. 

Also, this is my favorite emoji now: ðŸ˜Œ

- Until Next Time

Handsome Charming Man. 

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