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Alright Microsoft saga comes to a sweet end. I was not selected. However, I did get to interview at a top company and got to know the process and everything. I have learned quite a bit just talking to them. I learned they are not that brilliant (i mean they are, but we can be that way too). Like I learned how to tackle a problem. And it's just like usual, do the basics and keep optimizing.  Also, I was suggested to read about a few things. It's like end of season 1 and starting of season 2. Which is funny, because today morning I received an email from Google regarding interviews.  I think just going through the process has made me more confident about myself, also a lot more serious about knowing things in-depth and learning. So, I will be spending a lot more time reading and studying these concepts. I will try to understand everything I learn completely and dive deep into it.  To sum it up, super grateful for the experience and excited for future possibilities.  An...

  It's 2:19 AM. I had my interview today. It went better than I expected but there were things that I could have improved. Overall, I think I learned a lot. Just about things in scale, and how to write better code. Three things I learned: 1. Always check the input and it's types, as well as output and it's type.  2. Check the restraints well. Sometimes that can be used in your favor.  3. Think carefully, you don't need to come up with the best solution at once. You need to make iterative progress and come towards optimal solution.  Other than that, this just made me want to learn even more. I am waiting for the results right now. It might either come tomorrow or day after tomorrow. So, man.. this is even worse. I also have a meeting tomorrow. So, I need to be awake. I probably won't sleep. Anyways, I had Wild wings for the first time today with few of my friends. I had never tried that, so it was good.  Also, yeah guys, thanks for keep me in your prayers. I thin...

I had my therapy session after a while now. My therapist randomly asked me how motu was doing. She did that on purpose, to see how I would react. And based on how did responded, she told I was getting better. It's getting easier. I do feel hurt but now I don't feel bad a lot. But I know I cannot see her again, or look at her picture or anything of that sort. I don't think I would be able to deal with that. Anyways, I told my therapist about that.  Then we talked about self-esteem issues, and I don't think I have any now at the moment. Also, few months earlier when we first started therapy I had given myself a rating of 4 out of 10 and now today it's almost jumped to 8.5. Which was cool. Like why the fuck did I even think myself that I would be 4. Like this is not in attractiveness just to be clear. It's about the whole self, and how I perceive myself. So, that was surprising because I didn't know that I had given myself 4. Anyways, enough with the numbers ga...

I got my on-site interviews scheduled for next week. I wanted it to be a few weeks later but again due to deadlines and VISA issues. There we go again. I've faced a lot of problems just because of the visa issues, and having to give an unprepared interview because of that did bring a little tears in my eyes. I kinda felt had I had no issues with that, I could have extended the dates and prepared well and landed the job. But, it is what it is. You have to play with that cards that you are dealt with and that's ok. That's also the sign that you must work a little hard and it's ok no matter what the results will be.  I really want this job, like really really. This is the perfect role for me to start my career. I have never been so excited about anything in life and I really want to make it through this and get this job. It's honestly not because of the pay or whatever anyone might think. But, I am excited about possibly working with a team that is focusing on solving ...

  Yup that's the update. I feel good. I also received offer letter from my current company but the deadline to respond to that is April 22. Which is just a few days away. So, kinda confused on how I should proceed. I know it's easy I could just ask them to extend the deadline to respond but idk how to lol. I need to figure it out. Also, I need to schedule my interview with Microsoft within 3 weeks from now. I need to get into preparing leetcode once again. Will probably be busy. I am just aiming for that badge with the name microsoft on it and my name underneath. It would be cool.  Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers.  Also quick update: I watched the movie little women yesterday. Loved it. It was one of the best movies I had watched in a while.  Love you all,  Until Next Time  - Handsome Charming Man. 

First here's a recent article I read. While I was reading this, I felt like it said almost everything I had been wanting to say so here. Go read this :  Second, hey guys! I have been listening to classical hindi songs in different languages and man do I love it. I am fan of this girl. Here's the song that I am currently listening to.  Today is Sunday, April 17. Last night I had a small party with my friends and I was walking to my home at around 10, 11 ish. I was listening to this maya song by Aasutosh KC, and I loved it. The road was empty, it was just me and that cover along with the few lights on the way. It was magic. Again, I can't emphasize this enough, get yourself a good pair of headphones. I swear your life will change 😌. Also, that's my favorite emoji these days lol.  I don't really know what to write lol, I am not sure what this blog is supposed to consist of. Anyways, still waiting for my results from Microsoft, and preparing for my test for Pinterest....

 Never empower a limited identity. Violence is a natural cause of that. What is that we are fighting for. My identity vs your identity. Before you empower someone you must have it as cosmic identity. - Shadguru

Ok first here are some quick insights I had:  Just because something is emotionally taxing doesn't mean that you shouldn't do it. Similar to you working out, if it might actually make you better. We should try dealing with emotions and not avoid the circumstances surrounding it. I think the more we try and go through those taxing emotions, the better we become at handling them.  With emotions, most of the time, we think that it's the done deal. But, I don't think that is necessarily the case. We can also learn to handle them properly. We can go through un-comfortable situations and shouldn't hesitate to do that. Emotions can be deceiving.  Back to the blog: I just had a mock therapy session with one of my friends. Now, I feel like hey! all that thing you went through in last few months, at least that was helpful for someone. And now she is getting grades for that. LOL. This is cool. Also, it made up contents for my blog. Which is cool too. Also, it made me think abo...

Ok I just watched this telgu movie and few things I liked.  - Learn to love the differences you have with others, or even so looking for people who believe different things than you.  - Continue to adapt for others but be yourself and allow your significant other to be the same. themselves.  - Communicate. Communicate. Communicate.  - At the end nothing is really more important than the relationship you have with people around you. No differences should bring any distance in that.  - "What is love but the freedom that we give one another to be themselves.." I modified it a bit but I loved this.  I loved the last phrase especially. You loving someone is not you trying to mould them to be like someone you like or love or the qualities you love. I don't know what loving should be like but I am pretty sure it's not that. At least I wouldn't want that, and I don't think I ever tried to do anything like that. Pretty sure. So, I love that about me. lol.  Anyw...

I am about to be 25 and I want to be able to achieve something by the age of 30. So, for the 5 years I have the following goals.  I want to have an in-depth understand of the following fields. 1. Mathematics 2. Computer Science 3. Psychology  4. Social Sciences I want to get better at the following hobbies 1. Drawing / Painting / Digital Art 2. Singing / Instrument (Guitar) 3. Free styling.  4. Making Videos/Photography.  Things that I want to improve about myself 1. Sleep Schedule  2. Exercise (Being a greek god obviously) 3. Have a System of getting things done. 4. Being very open / honest / truthful.  5. Understanding Myself and others around me.  I want to read more about 1. Poverty and economics surrounding it. 2. Causes of inequalities and how we can work towards eliminating the root cause of it.  3. How to motivate others, help others become better.  4. How to communicate properly and effectively.  5. How to manage a group of peop...

I was watching this video   and I just wanted to share it here.  The metta phrases: May I/they be happy May I/they be free  May I/they be at peace 3 times each  1)Respected person or teacher  2)A friend  3)A neutral person  4)Yourself  5)A person you have negative feelings towards I feel a lot of compassion and gratitude towards the people I do have in my life these days. It's not that I feel that all the time, but just sometimes reflecting on the things and people that are in our life, maybe anyone whether you are in touch or no longer in touch, just feeling thankful towards their presence in our lives, and you know wishing all them all the best was a great feeling. I genuinely truly hope everyone reading this has best of their lives. I am not a good communicator maybe but still there is so much love for everyone that I do have in my life, or just know.  I met this guy on clubhouse yesterday who had broken up with his girlfriend of 9 ye...

Ok I just needed a place to put all the poems I had in facebook in one place. I had my facebook deactivated so I just logged back in pulled these out and deactivated again lol. I hate how I cannot deactivate instagram. Like I have to wait a week to do that. Anyway there's that. All these are from I guess 2015-2021.  Together We will run off into the sunset We will sail through the same waves, Together, you said we’d build our castles Together, we’d run away. All we ever wanted was to Escape, But it shouldn't have been this way, Together, you said we’d do everything, But why did you leave me today? You're who I wanted be You’re the one who I am never becoming You’re who said you’ll never leave You’re the first to leave today I don’t need a shoulder to cry on, I don’t feel like crying anyways I say this to everyone I meet And the truth lies far ahead. But still, I always look up at the sky, And wait for the falling star to show The one that grants wishes And ask it to bring ...

 Ok, just a thought. I am going to start writing blogs for my kids. Like I'll talk to them, we'd be super friendly and cool, and ask them about their day how they are feeling and all sorts of stuff and write a blog summarizing everything everyday. And once they get to the point where they can write. I'll ask them to maintain journal.  Why you ask? Oh hoo hoo! Now that's the genius part. They'll know everything about their childhood and life. So often we lie to ourselves, we change the thoughts, or you know we are always not right about the memories. But if we do have them recorded somewhere you'll know that the way you thought about things are different. Idk if this makes sense.  But, when the kids grow up and have some issues, they can just look at those notes they had from childhood. We'd also tag them. So, fuck dude. That's so awesome. Imagine just having every thoughts you had into some kind of notes. Which is kinda what I am doing at the moment. I t...