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My feelings for Her

Ever since I had talked to her, the only thing I've ever wanted, was to express my feelings towards her. It's strange; although it had been a year we knew each other, I never felt anything for her. We were just friends. Good friends actually. Yes, we used to chat with each other on Facebook, liked each other's pictures on Instagram and tweeted about each other on tweeter. But, I've never had feelings for until the day we actually met each other. Anyway, we had an awkward first meeting, and maybe that's the only reason I felt something for her.

A week ago, we actually met each other and got to know each other a bit better than we actually knew. And since that day, I guess, something's there, that I want to tell her. I had already given her some hint on Facebook. But today I finally dared to tell her face to face and Guess what? She feels the same ^_^ ( I'll come to that later) 

It had already been a week, I hadn't been to collage. I was at my uncle's. He's an eye specialist and has his own clinic and apartment. Lately, I hadn't felt so good about myself ( Whenever I felt so, I used to visit him ) Sometimes I think of him as an magician who wanders his wand and make all things go as per will. As they say doctor's synonyms Magician, He was actually one of them. 

I felt so confident and good about myself; after I returned. Today's morning was a bit unusual than the usual. Today I could feel the warmth of sun, feel the air travelling through my lungs. And the most important of all, I could feel my heartbeat. It was beating faster than usual. Probably, for someone.
Today, everything looked bright and clear. Suddenly all those blur and vague days were gone. I was surprised to see that change in me, and with all the good things going around, I thought today would turn out to be a great day (And it did) and I couldn't wait to see what today's got for me 

The way to my collage also seemed to change today. Probably, I began to notice things which I didn't before. I was suddenly noticing the smile in people's face and the love the birds shared. In fact, I was noticing all the beautiful things that life's got for us. Also I heard melodies for the first time. Sweet one. Before I didn't even hear people talk to me.

With all the good things going on, today, I thought I could finally look into her eyes, notice the smile on her face when I told her the thing I'd always wanted to.

 It was pretty evening when I approached her. The sun was going down and the sky was turning red. There were few traces of clouds in the sky and I felt like they were also wishing me luck. So gathering small bits of courage left, I approached her.
She was standing besides the chatpate stall. It looked like she had been waiting for someone. No! not for me, the only thing she wouldn't do is to wait for me. So as I was saying I approached her. She pretended to smile. I smiled. 
Without a second thought I went very close to her. We stared at each other for a while. I felt as if she wants to tell those "three letters" first. So I picked up a table, stood upon it. (Most of them expressed their feeling of love by getting on knees, but this was different. I am different. ) Her face was turning red. Like that of the sky when sun went down. You'll probably think I made up this part of story, but it actually began to rain. She smiled and said that she shared the same feeling. As it was raining I offered her my umbrella and we separated. 

Now you may think we started talking to each other, we began to see each other more often, NO! and why would we? Is it because we shared the same feeling? Oh come on, I never said we loved each other, We had something more than love, more powerful than love that exists in this mortal. Yes! "Hate"
Of course we hated each other! Not from the first day but that day when we met each other. And I'm pretty sure if you'll hear this you'll get angry too. That day we took a lot of selfies and that night she tagged me in the one where I looked like an ass. -_-  could she? I instantly wrote an status and dedicated it to her. To my surprise she didn't even like my status. I mean how could she! And since that day I always wanted to say that I hated her. Face to Face. 

And Now you're angry because I lied to you! No I never lied. The only reason my heart was beating so fast was because I had High BP and why did you think it was beating for someone, it was beating for me. How can my heart pump blood in someone else's body .

And everything looked bright and clear only because I had my eye surgery while I was at my uncle's. And of course I was deaf so I heard melodies for the first time. I had clearly mentioned that previously I didn’t even hear people talk, hadn't I?

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