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 I believe that we all are the same to some extend. Think I have a good way of putting this out so we all can understand. What are we excepts our thoughts? Nothing right. All actions are guided by our thoughts. You can have this exact same thought yourself. Say you think “I need to work out more”. Vs If I tell you “you should work out more”. Might feel like I am saying that you. Butttt what if you had this same thought yourself. Not different right? It’s just another entity telling you that. The core thought is the same, its just you put this image of me in it.  All our thoughts are guided by certain things that we believe in . If we change that, you will have different thoughts and way you think about it. But, its not that different right? Does that make sense? I think it does. Same thought, if you were thinking about it yourself, it becomes part of yourself. We are used to separate things and the origin of the thoughts.. Making it you vs me. Separate entities. But at core, t...

Took some time to figure out my guiding principles. As I am in the corporate world more, I have understood the benefits of these. If we don't have a clear way to think about things, and how we take decision, it becomes a little difficult. Just putting them here so I have them in the future, and also just they are here.  Pursuit of Mastery: Commit to lifelong learning and continuous improvement. Strive for mastery in your personal and professional life by setting high standards and seeking feedback. Ownership and Accountability: Take full responsibility for your actions and their outcomes. Embrace challenges as opportunities to grow and learn, and hold yourself accountable for meeting your commitments. Confident Autonomy: Trust in your abilities and judgment. Make decisions with confidence and conviction, while being open to new ideas and feedback. Assertive Communication: Express your thoughts, beliefs, and needs clearly and respectfully. Encourage open dialogue and ensure your...

  Rewatching 500 days of summer. I love this movie man. Can't recommend this enough to people. This movie, the plot , the scenes, the way that the guy thinks about love, it hits so close to home.  Just finished watching it again. Anyways, it's been a good day so far. It's almost 4 now. We are planning to have kheer today, which I am excited about. It's a little hot today, and I am sweating. I still have my morning coffee besides me lol. I have been learning to make latte art and today, I did manage to make the froth a bit better. You know ,the art is completely dependent on how to stem your milk, if it has too many bubbles then, its not that good. You want it exactly right where there's no too much froth and no bubbles.  I don't like drinking too much coffee, but I love making coffee. So, I am planning to practice making coffee by making them for my brother and sisters. If only I could wake up early man. Not if only, but will try to wake up early. It's like ...

  I don't know what to say this. But wait. Why is it that you feel so whole when you know there's someone loving you, and why is it so hard to find that sense of wholeness by just yourself.

Mostly I have problems being in a routine.It helps sometimes, but for the most part it isn't that helpful. I guess. But having a structure is beneficial. It's just that most of the time I just don't act on it. Because I feel like I won't be sticking long term with this. And also I feel like there will eventually be stuff that will derail me off of this planned time, causing me to fail this. And that makes me , things are outside my control and if I fail, it will seem like my fault and I don't want to have that. No-one will believe if I say that it wasn't my fault. I am remembering how even though it wasn't my fault, i would kinda get blamed for it as a child and I felt helpless. Like no-one understood that. So, it's better for me to just not stick to that and fail than to stick to it, and fail because of some external conditions. --> this doesn't make sense.  But yk .. it kinda does. Is this why I have not been sticking to a task for so long. I do...

Turns out I had this as draft. But why? Let's publish incomplete work / writings. Who cares?  Ok I love this girl. I had not thought about the Baudrillard's simulacrum and simulacra in this context, but now that I think about it, everything now is hyper-realized, with just not love but every aspect of our lives.  Also I added this video to the playlist that I think everyone should watch. Not just for "love" but for relationship in general which includes, family, friends, and basically understanding others. We often act like we know how to handle these stuff or just "love" but it is also a skill, i believe. we should learn how to love and maintain relationships.  This reminds of the videos of the school of life and Alain de bottom (who is the guy in the video below). I think everyone needs to watch this. at least once?  Full playlist: Relationship and Stuff Your very own,  Handsome Charming Man. 

This has to be one of the best movie ever. Just finished watching the movie balling my eyes. The final scene where he has to choose and says the last goodbye to his father. I wish I never have to do that. But I have to , my kids will have to. It's the nature of life. I get it.  Whatever it is that I am feeling, realizing, observing, so thankful for all of that. It's an experience. Utimilately, all of this. Just one big experience for all of us. So, best not to think of anything too much, just experience whatever it is.  I am doing well. I am sad a little because of our teammates is leaving the job. I cried last night after I heard that. He was one of the best people on the team. I loved him!! Hope one day I become as smart and as helpful as he was. Praying everything goes well at the startup he's trying to pursue. I am fucking crying as I write this. Will miss you at work man! It's sad never thought I would be this sad over a co-worker leaving a team who I didn't ev...