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 Ok. This is the best day of my life. Kinda. Best night? Idk. I feel like a huge burden has come off me. I feel like I did my best to let my friend know her position in my life and I think I've moved on. I feel like I've just put the final piece of puzzle onto the board and it's a beautiful scene. 


I think this would describe it the best. I am super excited. This is so so so so so good. Like yes!! Idk haha too excited? I guess that's it. 

This feels peaceful, calm. It's like I'm in a zen garden. I am super thankful for everyone in my life who have listened to me rant. Super grateful to have family and friends. And super grateful that I was with someone form whom I got to learn so much. 

I definitely will try to be more listening, and you know not be distant? I don't think I was. We were just busy but if she felt that way I probably was. We don't always see our fault or how we make others feel because we know what we feel and what the intent was but the other person doesn't. So, will try to be very mindful about that moving forward in the next relationship. 

Also, the goal of being a greek god is still there. I don't know man, no matter what happens, life will be good. I think. And it's ok even if it doesn't. Let's not jinx anything. 

It's 3:22 am right now. I recently found out about this awesome singer Papon. Loved his songs. I probably will listen to one of his songs and go to bed. Also I think I need to journal more. Will try to do that. It just helps you with everything. I love writing. I think I should try to take it more seriously. 

Also, I think I should be serious? Sometimes. But idk man, I compare myself to a constant flow of river. Constantly changing. And I probably will be at some point. Life is fun, it's fucking beautiful (ha! look at me saying that now) man. I love this. I knew the decision I took few months ago was right thing to do. 

Unknowingly, it shaped both of our lives in such a perfect way. She found the "love of her life" and I am on the path of finding myself. And now, I have re-established the friendship that I was scared of losing.  Everything ended perfectly. Everything just aligned where they were supposed to. I really wish all the best from all my heart and fuck all these posts about her haha most of them if you read now, ended on a happy note. I love that too. 

I also love how this blog has been a part of me. Through time. Love this. I have been waay too vunerable, shared my very happy moments, and I can always go through all these writings to see how far I've come. And I know I will be better in the future. I will be more understanding about other's emotions. (I am now too, but there's always room for improvement). She literally had inspired me to be empathetic and you know that'll always be there. It's like a little gift she gave me and I will cherish that forever. It's so awesome when you think about it. 

That is it guys and girls and them and theys. 

Until Next time. 

- Handsome Charming Man. 

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