Da fuck

 How does it feel to be happy? 

What is exactly that you feel?

Is happiness nothingness? 

What even is Joy? 

I know I used to be happy. 

But I can't even remember anything anymore. 

Was i happy or was unaware of the realities or the possibilities?

I honestly don't want to sound like a sage lecturing you on reality or spirituality. 

But what's the point

I've heard there needs to be no point but why?

I am honestly scared of the world we live in right now

What the fuck am I supposed to do? 

Graduate, earn money, have family friends. For what?

How can all the joy i used to find in small things just suddenly disappear. 

Now I should live my life trying to find that joy and then again it'll disappear or something else will come up 

What's the fucking point of all these?

Earth or god or whoever the fuck it is is just a sick fuck. Or evolution is just a sick fuck. 

Why did you wire our brains the way it did. Or is the society just wrong 

Or am I the only fucking person feeling this. I know I am not alone. But, why do I feel alone .

I know I am not the only one going through whatever the fuck this is but why does it feel like I am. 

This is not a poem btw or anything. 

I just wrote each sentence in different lines. 

You'll look stupid if you read this like a poem tbh

But it doesn't really matter so go ahead

Read like one. 

I'll even try to rhyme the next sentence for you

You, blue, hue. 

Sorry, that's all my mind is capable of right now. 

It just it is what it is. 

Ok now  I need to go back to studying for this stupid test.