Let's talk

Ok, so I sometimes just look at facebook profiles of random strangers that get recommended to me. I used to have this facebook that I made that have 0 friends. I talk to no one, it's just there to follow Mark Zukerburg and also so that facebook stops asking me to login everytime I want to see any videos on facebook or something like that.  I used to follow some Nepali influencers so it knows the people and recommends me Nepalese people. Very often, these people that get recommended to me not all west washed people but from the looks of it, maybe are middle-class? or lower middle class? Idk. I don't want to put labels like that but I think it's necessary for the context. Usually, all married men and women, who have kids. Sometimes, it's just random teens or people in their twenties.  But, I think I want to talk about the married ones. Like there's always a picture of their kids, and the two couples. Most of these people don't really care about the looks. So, usua...

This is probably the coolest thing I've seen in a while.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y1R5k5QWPsY

"Capitalism / Advertisements know what we need. It just refuses to sell it to us. It clicks onto our genuine needs and it connects these to variety of goods. And then we end up with consumer goods but not the thing that we needed. We are constantly made to buy things we don't really need. We are encouraged to forget the things that we really need and the way in which we solve the things that we don't need is through skillful dangling in front of us of our genuine needs which are not for sale." - Alan De Botton. 

 Ok. This is the best day of my life. Kinda. Best night? Idk. I feel like a huge burden has come off me. I feel like I did my best to let my friend know her position in my life and I think I've moved on. I feel like I've just put the final piece of puzzle onto the board and it's a beautiful scene.  I think this would describe it the best. I am super excited. This is so so so so so good. Like yes!! Idk haha too excited? I guess that's it.  This feels peaceful, calm. It's like I'm in a zen garden. I am super thankful for everyone in my life who have listened to me rant. Super grateful to have family and friends. And super grateful that I was with someone form whom I got to learn so much.  I definitely will try to be more listening, and you know not be distant? I don't think I was. We were just busy but if she felt that way I probably was. We don't always see our fault or how we make others feel because we know what we feel and what the intent was but the o...

Haha it's so funny, actually. I just saw the invoice for my therapy session and saw it was February 14. Lmao, funny times. Anyways, let's try this thing again. I don't know why I want to go to therapy but I do want to be whole and I don't want the breakup to mess up my mind.  Anyways, I have an exam tomorrow and I need to study. K bye! Will update after the session it's after 3 days.