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Hi.  I never thought I would listen to Taylor Swift to heal myself. It's ironic because I listen to it because of my ex, and am I listening to forget about her. All to well, doesn't even resemble anything we had but its soothing somehow. I guess, it's the thought of moving on, which is powerful about this song.  I now only need to get a cup of ice cream and cry, and I think I'll become one of those teenage girls that you see in the movies. I have realized that it's more difficult to move on if the other person was not too bad, you know? I can't even hate her, like Taylor. I can't even say it was bad, and stuff you know? Because it wasn't.  I don't know what to write man, but I want to. It's midnight and I just listened to paper rings which she used to dedicate me and now I am listening to all too well. When all is not too well. I remember it all too well too but you know, it was good. How can I hate good memories. Anyways, is this too cringy? lol...

 These days I was thinking, how I haven't found anyone to deeply connect with in a while, but I am glad I avoided people instead of just hanging out with them for the sake of having friends. I had this confusion if I should make more meaningless friends or just wait until I truly find someone I click with. I think I did the right thing by not wasting my time around people who I don't vibe with or I know that they don't have the best interest for me at the heart.  So often people complain about how they feel unwanted in their friend group but still choose to associate with the people. Yeah, let's not do that. Now, that I think of it, it was wayyy more productive and good for me to just learn new stuff and do programming projects instead of chasing that. As I reflect, that has given me more confidence and will be helping me in the long run than the meaningless parties and alcohol and weed.  Social media or movies makes us feel like the only way to have fun is by doing all...

Listen, I wanted to tell you something This time, I won't lie to you and say that I love you a lot See, love is not as easy as it appears on love letters But looking deep into your eyes, I'll admit that I keep thinking of a lot of ways to get closer to you But I don't want any promises of love I'd be happy if I could just kiss your rosy lips.  I would go anywhere you take me I'd listen to any voice that I knew were yours You don't need to love someone to have a good time  Please don't think about getting our hearts together I keep thinking of a lot of ways to get closer to you But, I don't want any promises of love I'd be happy if I could just kiss your rosy lips.  My heart is like the ever changing weather  Don't ask me  My heart doesn't stop around, it always fades away Looks like the way I feel is different from how you feel  Looks like my wishes will never reach yours I keep thinking of a lot of ways to get closer to you But, I don't ...