Exploring the Dark Side

For the past two weeks, I haven't been really holding up to my promise of putting out a blog each Thursday. It's usually I have homework for maths due on Friday and I procrastinate until Thursday to do it. So, I usually end up doing my homework than writing a blog. Opssies.

But, I thought why not write the blog today, so that it would not affect me even if I procrastinate. Although, not procrastinating is a better idea, here we are. So, what's up, wonderful creatures. Today, we are exploring our dark side. Together.

I haven't actually thought about what I am going to write lol. I hope I can explore this dark side while I write.

I feel like I am a normal kid. But that's even scary. Especially after watching Joker. What if I am like Joker. Trying to find good in all things and am trying to be a better person. But, what if  I change suddenly. Am I capable of killing someone? Shit no, that would... see that's scary. Damn. But when you think of it, what is the Dark side? Our ancestors did some pretty bad shit. Killing someone used to be normal. Wars, and shits like that. What could be the darkest shit? Harming others, harming yourself, manipulating someone idk. Sometimes, I feel like I or anyone could have this potential to turn out bad. And its all matter of fact what triggers that. No serial killer or psychopath ever thought they were capable of doing any dark shit. The biggest irrational fear that I have is what if I become mentally damaged. Most of this comes from watching movies. I would never want a life like that. But, what if I enjoy doing those things. Damn. Idk if this is considered dark shit.

What is normal and what is not. Who defines that? What's wrong with harming people? If we look at the animal kingdom, that happens on a daily basis. That's how nature works. Strong suppress the weak. I am not saying that it is good. Well, there is no objective truth. Just because a lot of people believe harming others is bad, doesn't make that inherently bad. I mean we are animals with consciousness after all. We evolved by harming others, we evolved by feeding off the weak. And now, why is it suddenly bad. I am not justifying anything and no way believe that it's good. But, when you think of it that way, nothing is good or bad. Nothing is bright or dark. There is no dark side. We created the dark side. We labeled certain things as dark. If we look at the grand scheme of things, nothing is good or nothing is bad. So. we can't really label things as good and bad. Nothing matters. Example: Some may enjoy hanging out with friends, some may think of cutting them into pieces. We label the first ones and normal, and latter mentally ill.

But, those are just arguments. In real life, things are often different. We have emotions, we can think logically, and real-world consequences are different. We've got one life to live and should try to live it as best as we can. We are not sure what happens after death, so why not make the most of the life we have. I feel like everyone struggles with something, everyone is fighting their own battle. The least we can do is be kind to one another and offer help as much as we can. We may have a dark side, but that shouldn't define us. We often focus on negative sides and think about how we can improve it (which is good) but fail to focus on positive ones too. I don't know where I am going with this.

Damn when you think of it, your life now, could've been much worse. I don't know how it relates to dark side, haha. But, it's all good. Sometimes negative thoughts are also ok. It's not we shouldn't have them at all. That's not possible. But thinking about it helps us identify those things and resolve them. I can't really say what my dark side is, but hopefully, I will be able to identify them as time goes on and work on it.