Friendzoned

Hi Guys, and Girl who just friend-zoned me,

Let me tell you a story about how I got friend-zoned. This was actually supposed to be a story of how I met your mother but due to a series of unfortunate events, that's not how the story goes.

The story begins 2-3 hours ago when I saw a story from Natalie (fake name btw! Shrijya will hate me if I use her real name) where she posted this picture. Notice that this picture has a heart, not that we could deduce anything by looking at the actual picture itself, she took the extra time to draw that heart. How could she? It was like adding fuel to a burning house, adding salt to a fresh wound. It only made me 2x times sadder. Anyways, she drew this heart and shared it with her close friends on Instagram.

For a moment, I wished I wasn't one of her close friends. For a moment, I wished I never knew her at all. For a moment, I wished I was that guy in the picture. To be honest, I actually wished for a lot of things ranging from "Time travel" to "Love potions" but it would be lengthy if I listed them all.

Now, I don't know what it was like to live in Japan at the moment of World War II, but I am pretty sure that I understood how Japanese felt after the Hiroshima and Nagasaki bombings. This picture landed on my phone like the atom bombs on Japan and turned my heart into ashes. Luckily, I am a Phoenix. (lol sorry for that)

But guys, I didn't react like an atom bomb just dropped and I think this is something you should learn from me. I kept it casual. CA-SU-AL. I am a casual person. I do casual things. So I typed the casual-est reply, anyone in the entire world has ever typed. "Ok, I see you" I replied.

But I actually couldn't see her. You saw the picture right? I cant see her, her face is almost covered by the guy's face. I was sad, upset and sad again. My casualness was fading away. And did I tell you I liked her, by like I mean loved her? In case you don't read my blogs, the "Love letter" blog post was written for her.

Anyways guys lets move on. (Considering this is what I have to learn now. )

Ok, so after I saw that post, and left the casual-est reply in the history of mankind I watched a movie, a romantic one. Then I saw this youtube video which told me that "I will never find the right person and I was irredeemably alone". That didn't make me feel better. So, I watched another movie, a romantic one. In both movies, the main characters got together in the end. But, this wasn't a movie. We weren't the main characters. I mean I was, I am the main character for this blog. But there's no way of knowing if she was/is the main character of my story. If she is we will always end up together. If not, this will just be another story.

I was also waiting for her to reply so that I could know who this guy was, who she took the time in her life to draw the heart for. Few hours pass, I felt sad. I felt like I should've told her what she meant to me. How I felt about her. But now, none of the things I say will matter, it will make things even worse. I now had to die without ever telling her how beautiful I think she is and how much I loved her. Wow, even remembering that makes me feel sad.

But, after a few casual hours, she replied.

"Him,😍" she said. My heart broke into pieces in such a way that no force in the universe could put it back together. I was ready to cry, I could feel my eyes producing teardrops for me. But, just as I was ready to cry,(jk I am trying to make it sound dramatic)  she then told me she was joking and that was from a movie that she had recently seen. She loved the scene and wanted to share it with her close friends. Awww... so thoughtful. 🙄A guy nearly died because of that. (Btw, for those who don't know her, the girl in the picture looks exactly like her )

I was so mad at myself. I watched two movies after I saw that picture, why couldn't I have watched that fucking movie. At that moment, I made it my life's mission to watch every romantic movie ever made, so that I will not be fooled by anyone's Instagram story in the future... Or I could just look closely at the picture, but where's the fun in that?

 Anyways, that made me realize how I felt about her. Because I was clearly not feeling good about the fact that she was in a relationship (or I thought she was). So, I felt like one of the things that I wished for actually came true. She wasn't in a relationship.

Then I felt like I should actually tell her how I feel about her. We had been friends for over 4 years now, and I never felt anything for her. (Well, I kinda did once, but it was nothing serious)  We were just guys and girls who were friends.

My friends used to tell me that she would be perfect for me and we would be this perfect couple in couples town. I used to think about it and suddenly a few months ago, out of nowhere, I started having feelings for her. It was never meant to be anything serious. I thought it was natural to like someone after getting to know them for such a long time. But, guys love is a crazy thing. I didn't know I loved her until I saw that picture. So, I thought I should let her know about this now because the next time she posts a picture like that it might be real and I might not be able to go back in time or make love potions to say how I feel. So, it only made sense to me to tell her how I feel despite knowing exactly what her response was going to be.

Basically, I knocked on this friend-zone door and pushed myself in. Now that I think of it, I could've waited, things might have changed in the future, who knows. But, I being the dumb dumb dumb idiot walked straight right into it. But, I actually feel good though. I got to tell her how I feel, but the only downside was that now I have to be stuck here forever.

And let me give you some quick facts. I am not even lying only 0.0000001 % of people manage to defeat this friend-zone and get out of it. And even for a handsome charming man like me, it is challenging. Now what? I don't know, I got to figure out this friend-zone stuff. I never thought I would have to live inside this zone, but I guess I do.

So, like the movie, I saw recently, its time for me to hit the gym and be a hot L.A music executive. Then I'll go back to Nepal and make a series of stupid mistakes, and write 50 things I like about Natalie on a piece of paper and somehow let her find that. She will then fall for me, but then it's my turn to friendzone her (not intentionally). So, obviously, we'll have a fight. I'll then go back to LA and realize that I made a mistake so I go back to Nepal (Oh boy! This process is going to be so expensive, better save up for the plane tickets) and we fall in love.

I'll see you then. Also, sorry for spoiling the movie if you were planning to watch it. The movie is called "Just Friends". I have linked it above.