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 I am on-call on a new team that I joined this week. I just finished learning in a bit detail about their inputs / output sources and architecture in general. This week has been interesting. We got a COE (correction of errors) for a bad change that led to congestion in the network. I spent a bit of time diving into it, the change wasn’t that big, just splitting a job into small batches. But that led to 2 dataset within the same scope being produced at 2 different times, and there was a validation logic which filtered datasets by dates. This led to us doing the wrong thing. Who could have thought when pushing this change (not my change btw) that it’d have this side effect. We didn’t catch this via any test.  Now we had a holiday this week, so I am not sure if I was a bit lazy (i wasn’t) or there’s not enough time for on calls to handle other things. I haven’t been able to and even though I am not working, in the back of my mind, I know there’s work to be done and it would be be...

Just found this in my notes - thought I’d share.  One emotion seeks another to be 0. Let me explain.  Anger seeks apology / justice. If it never gets that it continues growing.  One emotion that helps all other emotions is acceptance, or forgiveness - both of which are very difficult.

 Most of what I write, including this one is unstructured feelings. I’ve never spent more than a couple of seconds thinking what I will be writing next. That brings its own set of pros and cons. Now, I am not going to bore you with SWOT analysis here, but one of the cons I think is that I have yet to form a cohesive writing. (Btw arsenal won today 5-2 super happy)  There is some beauty of a good piece of article, everything is balanced. The words are in perfect harmony with one another. Each building up space and story for the next. Like these words were made for each other. One’s position fits perfectly in the sentence, and as a part of the paragraph - further article. I don’t read a lot of books so I find it difficult to give writings justice. I should try to read more.  I like the idea that one should be good at 3 things. Reading, Writing and Speaking. Each of which helps you in any area of your life. I am trying to focus on the second one. Writing. I read few of my pr...

Waking up in the morning is fucking awesome. Just woke up at 5 and I feel like I’ve already completed day worth of work. It’s not even 9. Let this be a reminder to wake up early. 

From Blogging to AI and the Intricacies of Modern Relationships The Evolution of Personal Expression It's fascinating to reflect on how our modes of personal expression have evolved. There was a time when I'd regularly open my personal laptop, eagerly typing away on my blog. Now, the thought of accessing Blogger on my work device feels almost taboo. Yet, the urge to share persists. I've been blogging since childhood, a realization that never fails to amaze me. It's a testament to the enduring human need to document, to share, to leave a mark. In an interesting twist of technological progress, I now have a trained ChatGPT model that's becoming increasingly adept at mimicking my voice. To enhance its performance, I find myself doing regular "brain dumps" – a peculiar exercise in self-reflection and AI feeding. Why do I do this? Perhaps it's a uniquely human desire to see our thoughts externalized, to have a digital doppelganger of sorts. Or maybe it'...

 Holy fukcing shit, can’t even spell fucking correctly.  I might take tomorrow off, and reflect on a few things. For now it’s 1:20 am. Need to go to bed and sleep.  Goodnight. 

 A lot of people would die to be in your shoes, make the most of what you have. This realization has been hitting me hard recently. I will do more with what I have. I must right. This is just about anything good health mostly, ability to learn, talk speak, influence for good right, for others.  There's always this idea about what is good, who defines good and what good are we striving for, so thinking about that becomes a bit complex, but start small we'll figure it out along the way. Good health for instance is always nice, for me and others around me. Learning is always good, empathy is good I think these are things we can agree on. So, yk just figured that out lol while writing. See it helps. talk to yoyurself or write to yourself .  Ultimately, I believe it comes down to carefully examining our own conscience, staying intellectually humble and open to dialogue with others, and then acting with compassion and good intentions as best we understand them. We may never ach...