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I don’t know when or if I will be able to tell you that I love you. Well, love is a complicated word. But what good would it do. We are miles apart. Maybe we will meet, maybe not. But, still the idea of you not being with me scares me. (It doesn’t necessary scare me per-say, but I thought it sounded romantic. I certainly would feel sad. Maybe cry? Who knows?) But no matter what, I know you’d still be there for me. Supporting me. Helping me understand myself and be there when I need you. But it wouldn’t still be the same. Would it? I have already made a mistake by not letting you know sooner. I didn’t realize I loved you until you loved someone else. I don’t regret it, but I wouldn’t exchange the thought of you being in my arms for anything else. I might for a million dollars?? Maybe?? But... that shouldn’t mean I don’t love you. I think of us being together. Raising kids and growing old together. I’ve never felt like this for a long time. Why am I ...